Sam Goldberg – Today is His Yartzheit

[Photos:  Left – Sam and Esther Goldberg in Maimi Beach; Right – Shaya Schloss and Sam at DP Camp.]

Sam Goldberg was a hero. His death left the world bereft of his smile and his indestructible spirit. Today is his Yartzheit – the Hebrew date of his death. It is marked by lighting a 24-hour candle and by his children saying kaddish in Synagogue.

This is Sam’s first Yartzheit since the publication of My Soul is Filled with Joy: A Holocaust Story. Between last September and this September, hundreds, no thousands of people have heard and/or read about Sam Goldberg and what he lived through during the Holocaust. The historical record is being amended to include Sam (Shmuel) Goldberg as a Nazi slave, forced to build Treblinka, as a member of the group that planned and executed the uprising, and as one of a small number that survived this infamous death camp. And then after escape how he hid with Esther and Chayim in a pit and a barn for a year until liberation in July of 1944.

So how shall we remember Sam on this day when we recall his strange death on an airplane over Oklahoma City? We can remember what it says on his tombstone and what Shlomo has turned into a powerful song:

יְ-ה-וָ֥-ה אֱלֹהָ֑י שִׁוַּ֥עְתִּי אֵ֝לֶ֗יךָ וַתִּרְפָּאֵֽנִי׃

יְֽ-ה-וָ֗-ה הֶֽעֱלִ֣יתָ מִן־שְׁא֣וֹל נַפְשִׁ֑י חִ֝יִּיתַ֗נִי מיורדי־[מִיָּֽרְדִי־] בֽוֹר׃

O LORD, my God, I cried out to You, and You healed me.

O LORD, You brought me up from Sheol, preserved me from going down into the Pit.

(Tehillim 30)

Here is a link to the song from my website.

This tells the story of Sam’s Holocaust years, but there is part of another verse on his tombstone that also tells of Sam’s character:

שַׁמַּאי אוֹמֵר, עֲשֵׂה תוֹרָתְךָ קֶבַע. אֱמֹר מְעַט וַעֲשֵׂה הַרְבֵּה, וֶהֱוֵי מְקַבֵּל אֶת

כָּל הָאָדָם בְּסֵבֶר פָּנִים יָפוֹת:

Shammai used to say: make your [study of the] Torah a fixed practice; speak little, but do much; and receive all with a pleasant countenance.

(Avot 1:15)

Engraved on his tombstone is the latter part of this Mishna – “receive all with a pleasant countenance.”

This is indeed how Sam received each human being.   He was happy to see everyone and embraced them for who they are. Even when he met a Treblinka Kapo at Grossingers on vacation, he did not make a fuss. See blog post about this incredible encounter.

I can still him calling me “Daaaaarlihng” and welcoming me to his Miami condo. As his daughter-in-law, I felt his love and his appreciation of how I was helping to recreate his lost family.   Sam’s parents, murdered by the Nazis, were not present at our wedding or at the birth of our four children. But Sam relished each of his 10 grandchildren. And from heaven above he watched as one by one, many of his grandchildren got married and then his first great-grandchild, William Samuel, was born and now, I am happy to announce, a second great-grandchild has been born. My son, Jack and his wife Emma have given birth to a baby boy.  Bris will be this Sunday morning, as he enters the covenant and continues the chain of Jewish history that Sam worked so hard to maintain.

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[Photo:  Jack and Emma’s baby].

Mazal tov to Jack and Emma and may Sam’s memory be a blessing to us all.

Węgrów Live! What Does Jesus Have to Do with It?

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“Are you of the generation after the Holocaust that was saved and now believes in Jesus or are you still waiting for the Messiah?”

This was the second question I got after I spoke for fifteen minutes via an internet connection to a group of Poles at the Węgrów Library. They gathered this evening to commemorate the liquidation of the Węgrów ghetto 77 years ago.   The centerpiece of the evening’s program was an invitation to come and learn about My Soul is Filled with Joy: A Holocaust Story and “meet” the author, Karen Treiger.

Grzegorz Maleszewski, the grandson of Władysława and Stanisław Styś, organized the evening and set up a video hookup so I could appear on screen in the room. Joanna Millick was my language savior and translated for me (thank you Joana – as always!).

But really — the first burning question after they hear the story of Sam, Esther and the Styś family is whether I now believe in Jesus!

So, how, you might ask, did I answer the question? I gave myself about a two second pause to collect my thoughts and I responded something like: “I am still waiting for the Messiah. I believe that Jesus was a great man and a prophet and had much to teach the world, but I don’t believe he was the son of god.”

“I love the title of your book” the questioner followed up, “and it seems that if this is your title, you must have been touched by Jesus.”

“As a person of deep faith,” I stammered, “I believe that our shared a belief in G-d can bring us together.”

Before this burning concern came up, I spoke for about 15 minutes about my journey writing the book and how Węgrów is a very important town to our family since it was the place of birth of Shmuel Rajzman.   Rajzman was a slave laborer in Treblinka like Sam, but to Sam and to others at Treblinka, Rajzman was a giant of a man. Sam described him as his best friend and had his picture in his wallet until the day he died.   Rajzman was the cell leader of Sam’s Treblinka uprising group and was lucky enough to escape.   A few months later when Sam and Esther got married in Stoczek, it was Shmuel Rajzman that was the Mesader Kedushin – officiating at the ceremony.

I wrote a blog post about Shmuel Rajzman, which you can see here.

I discussed some of my experiences writing the book and the impact of my trip to Poland and meeting the Styś family.  I described how seeing the barn and the pit where Esther and Sam hid was a life changing experiences. I emphasized that the Styś family stood up to the hate and the murder that was all around them and they are examples of how to behave in dark times.

When the evening came to a close I wondered what Grzegorz thought about the questions. Well, I did not have to wait long to find out.

Four hours later, so about 11 PM in Poland, Joanna received a note from Grzegorz.  She translated it for me:

“Karen is very strong, amazing really. She can find herself in every situation. There are no hard questions for her, she is really great. Please let her know.

One has to be tolerant of others regardless of religious beliefs. As in every group, it’s not always perfect. Through comments like that we see everyone the same way. It’s good there are individuals who change the world: Joanna, Karen, and Grzegorz. The most important is the cement that holds the building together, that is the love we have for others, loving others as much as we love ourselves. That was the message of the rabbi at the meeting.

I thought you might want to know all that.”

Wow. That is an amazing response.

Dziękuję Ci (thank you), Grzegorz. You are one of my heroes and I sincerely thank you for putting this evening together, inviting me to attend, and being part of my life.

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My Life as a Podcast

Nancy Pear Award

Did you ever feel like your life was a podcast?

Well, I feel this way about my life last week. I can hear the podcast playing.  Here’s the intro:

“This is a story about how so many crazy things can happen to one person over the course of four days. . . . Stay with us.”

Then the advertising kicks in –

“Have you ever tried and tried to make a website, but it just never goes well? Well, you should try Go Daddy’s amazing website builder. It makes building your website as easy as pie and friendly customer service representatives are at the ready to help when you.”

[ok, so Go Daddy is my website host and it happens to be the company that my sister-in-law, Lauren, works for and she helped build the “easy to use” website builder. But in all seriousness, the customer service reps are amazing and patient.]

After the break –

“We’re back – Act one – Here’s a story of a retired attorney, turned author, Karen Treiger, who published her first book and met tons of people along the way. But one day she had a book event at the Seattle downtown library and the different worlds she has been inhabiting collided. After the presentation, Tatyana, someone who had heard the author speak at a book club, came to library event to hear more, said – “can you show me that photo again – I think I saw Barbara!”

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The photo shown towards the end of the presentation is pulled up and enlarged -indeed it’s Barbara, someone Tatyana knows from her work with Janusz Korczak Institutes around the world. Barbara, the woman in the picture is the granddaughter of Helena Stys, one of the Righteous Christians that helped Sam and Esther, the author’s in-laws, when they hid from the Nazis. Barbara had attended the Warsaw event where Karen launched the Polish translation of her book, My Soul is Filled with Joy and she showed the picture to provide a visual of the launch party. In fact, Tatyana explained, Barbara had been in Seattle just about a year ago for an educational conference about Dr. Korczak’s educational philosophy.

[For more details of Library craziness see blog post]

After the break, we’ll tell you how Karen went into shock upon hearing she won an award for her book.

Another ad  –

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Act Two: “So, this retired attorney, who now thinks she is an author decided to apply for some awards.   She thought that they were all scams because they charge between $100 and $200 to apply and ask that you send a million books to some random address that you don’t believe is real. Then, the author met Jim, a retired publisher rep who now has time to go out to lunch to give advice to new authors, told Karen that she should apply for the PNWA Nancy Pearl award.

“Ya, ya, I know how these work, the author says skeptically, you apply and no one reads your book and someone who has an in with the organization or one of the big publishing companies wins the prize – no thanks.”

“’No’,” the retired book salesman says, ‘this is a prize that is given by librarians. It’s only librarians that read it and make the decision on who wins. You should totally apply.’”

“’Ok,’ the author says, ‘I’ll spend the $100 and try to forget about it, so I am not too disappointed.’”

The author fills out the form, pays the money and sends in the million books to address that is – who knows where.

As a defensive mechanism, she promptly puts it out of her mind and tries hard not to think about it.

One thing you need to know about Karen is she is an avid water skier. Any morning in the summer that the lake is smooth, you can find her out on the water skiing her way to heaven on earth, at least that is how she describes it. One day, she was walking down the dock at the Marina where her boat lives, and her phone rang. Now, she has described to me how it is always a terrible idea to answer your phone on the dock because the chance of the phone falling into the water is extremely high, in-fact, everyone in her family has lost at least one phone to the lake. But, against her better judgement she answered the phone.”

“Hi, says a disembodied voice, “I am Pam (not real name) from the Pacific Northwest Writers’ Association. I am calling to tell you that you are a finalist in the Nancy Pearl Book contest, congratulations.”

“What,” the author says, not fully comprehending.

“You applied for the Nancy Pearl award for Best Memoir and you are one of the five finalist. The winner will be announced Saturday night at the awards’ banquet of the PNWA conference. If you have not signed up for the conference yet, finalists can get a discount to sign up.”

“I am actually already signed up to come to the conference,” the Karen stutters, “so that is amazing, thank you for letting me know.”

Ok, that is crazy, the author thought.  But off she went on the boat – only thinking of glassy water and the endorphins that will be released as she crosses the wake back and forth, spraying water high above her head.

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Here is the thing – the awards banquet begins on Saturday night, September 14 at 7 PM and end at 8:30.   Karen observes the Jewish Sabbath and will not be able to leave her house until 8:10 PM on Saturday night. It’s a 15-20 minute drive to the hotel where the conference is, so she figured she would miss the awards ceremony. Ok, such is life.   She figures she can arrive by 8:30 and see who won and congratulate the winner.

September 14th – the big day arrives. The Sabbath ends, Karen starts the dishwasher, and runs out to the car. It’s a Nissan Leaf – so driving is an exquisite pleasure of smooth silence and no gas emissions as she rolls over the streets of Seward Park, onto I-5 towards the airport to SeaTac where the conference is being held. She described to me that as she was driving, she did some self-soothing and self-talk – “it doesn’t matter if you win or not, being a finalist is an amazing honor and that is sufficient. Be ready to heartily and sincerely congratulate the winner when you get there.”

She arrives – it’s 8:26 – the dinner is over at 8:30. “Ok, let’s go,” she says to herself.

She enters the hotel and walks toward the ballroom where the 500 participating writers, authors, editors and agents are sitting having their dead chicken dinners.   She describes her decision to wear her bright yellow leather jacket: “this is my lucky jacket,” she exclaims.

This is how she described the moment:

“OK, so I got there, trying to calm my nerves. I walked into the room with 500 people, figuring I would find the two people that I know and ask what happened with the awards. But as I stepped over the threshold of the door, into the room with 500 stomach-filled people, I hear the following booming noise: ‘the winner is Karen Treiger, My Soul is Filled with Joy.’ I look up and see my face and the cover of my book on the huge screen in both corners of the room. I say to myself, ‘I think I won something, but I am not sure what I just won.’ The announcers of the award are looking around the room to see if the winner will come to the podium to accept her award. So, I just keep walking straight up to the podium to accept my award. To say that I was in a state of shock is an understatement. My whole body went numb, I couldn’t even feel my heart pounding through my chest, though I am pretty sure it was.   But I went up to the stage and took my certificate to the polite clapping of the audience, I grabbed the mike, looked at this large audience and said ‘this is a bit crazy, but since I observe the Jewish Sabbath, I just arrived, walked in, and heard my name. Wow, thank you.’ I really didn’t want those that saw me walk in just at the moment of the announcement to think – “OMG, can you believe it – -that woman was waiting outside to see if she won!” I gave back the microphone and the announcer said -ok, that’s it, thank you all for coming. There will be a reception for the winners and the finalists with the agents and editors. Have a good night.”

As Karen drove home, her numbness wore off and she allowed herself a moment of pride. She hoped that Esther and Sam, were proud of her too.

Podcast listeners – thank for listening and don’t forget to use the promo code – “soyouwanttowriteaholocaustbook.wordpress.com” to get 10% off your first book on Audible. A book we recommend is My Soul is Filled with Joy: A Holocaust Story, by Karen Treiger.

Peter Curtis and me at PNWA Award Reception 9.14.19

Karen with Peter Curtis – another Nancy Pearl Award Winner! {wrote a novel about his family’s escape from Prague during Nazi years}

Einstein Strikes Again – This Time at the Seattle Public Library

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“A human being is part of the whole, called by us ‘Universe,’ a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separate from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness.”   Albert Einstein

Yes, I am usually delusional, feeling indeed like I am a separate entity, living in time and space.   But again, on Wednesday at the Seattle Downtown Library, my delusional bubble was popped, and I was yanked back into the reality of the Universe as described by Einstein. Yank makes this experience sound harsh. It was not. It was more like a nudge off a cliff into the vastness of all. It was another message that my decision to leave my law practice behind and write this book was what I am supposed to be doing.

First, two back-stories:

One: A few months ago, my Samke (Shtetl in Belarus) cousin Linda asked me if I would come to speak at her book club as they were reading My Souls is Filled with Joy.   I, of course, said “yes.” It was a wonderful group of intelligent women who found the book meaningful. One of the women who was in the book club, Tatyana, brought two bottles of Kwas – a drink mentioned in the book as the type of bubbly drink produced by the Kwiatek family in Stoczek. Tatyana informed me that it’s a popular drink in Russia, her place of birth. We all tasted the bubbly brew. Honestly, it’s an acquired taste.

“Karen,” Tatyana said after the drinking party was over, “I am helping to organize a conference in Vancouver on Janusz Korczak. Would you be interested in speaking at this conference?”

“A whole conference about Janusz Korczak?” I asked with an eyebrow raise. “Why? I mean, I know he was a hero, going to Treblinka with the children of his orphanage and all, but a whole conference?”

“Oh, there are institutes all over the world that study Korczak’s educational philosophy and his approach to raising healthy, independent, children.”

Who knew?   Not me, but “Sure,” I said, “I would love to participate.”

So, I did – I went to Vancouver one day in July and spoke to a group of educators about Treblinka, the place where Dr. Korczak and his orphans were murdered by the Nazis in August of 1942.

Two: In June I went to Poland to launch the Polish translation of My Soul is Filled with Joy and participate in the Ride for the Living – a 60-mile bike ride from Auschwitz to Krakow. Members of the Stys family came to the book launch event in Warsaw. Grzegorz Maleszewski, one of the heroes of my story, was there, and even spoke at the event. I was also honored to have a group of descendants of Helena Stys with us – grandchildren and great grandchildren! I took a photo with this group and everyone went home with a book.

Ok, now here is where we get to the nudge off the Universe cliff.   This past Wednesday I had a book event at the Seattle Downtown Library.   Tatyana and her husband came to the event – so nice. Towards the end of the presentation I shared that the book was translated into Polish and that I launched the Polish version this past June in Warsaw.  One of the photos I showed was the one Helena’s descendants.

“Can you show me that slide from Warsaw again,” Tatyana asked after the Library presentation.

“Sure,” I responded.

I pulled up the photo on my computer and her fingers enlarged the center part of the photo.

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“Yes,” Tatyana said pointing to a woman third from the left, “that is Barbara, Barbara Sochal.  She came to Seattle last August and spoke at our Korczak conference.”

We looked Barbara up on Facebook and indeed her name is Barbara Janina Sochal. The “Janina” is a giveaway. She must be Janina’s daughter and thus, Helena’s granddaughter. Amazing.  Barbara and I are now friends on Facebook and Tatyana connected us via e-mail.

How crazy is that?   A woman I met through my Samke cousin Linda has worked together with Janina’s daughter on a conference in Seattle about Janusz Korczak. Connection made on the fourth floor Seattle’s Downtown Library from a photo that I took in Warsaw.

Well Einstein, welcome to my Universe – we are all connected.